Thinking of you Justy, have faith in yourself and all will be fine. You have been on a great roll toward health. Please keep it up and stay well. I have ad an abortion also and I know how complicated it becomes but you must protect yourself and kids and do what feels best for you whatever that is. You are young and wonderful and you will survive this. My friend Jane used to tell me to go to bed when I was really bothered by something. She would say that sleep has a way of giving you guidance and insight. She was right. Peace my Dear