i sat there...my heart beating a little faster...my lips trembling...my face feeling warm...i hate myself for not wearing something comfy and cozy...i have no sleeves to hide my hands in...i look down on the floor...as tears fill my eyes...omg omg omg...stop stop stop...i cant cry...and get emotional ...not today..not right now...i look up...and completely change the subject...phew..then relax...i can breathe.

this was so so so scary and such a foreign experience for me !!!!!! i had no idea what was gonna happen to me next...i have never cried in front of anyone as an adult. i have never felt so vulnerable. it was so uncomfortable...

kudos to those who get through this...
i just wanted it to end...i couldnt take it.

anyone with me on this?