I also really can only give you my support and maybe a few suggestions. I am with what the others have said. It's going to be scary when it's the anniversary of a traumatic event. Especially when you think of it being 10 years ago. One thing I have heard is don't focus on it being that long ago to the extent that you can. I know you cannot completely block out the thought of aniversaries and it's still going to be there and it's still going to hurt. Healing is like a tootsie pop for example. You take a toopsie pop and you have the layer of paper first. So this layer of paper will eventually be taken off and next thing you know you have this deep thick layer of hard candy and you are trying to get to the extra special part, the tootsie roll in the middle. You have to go through all of these layers before you can get to the good part. So it's like healing in that the paper is your fragileness and just getting to the point where you are able to stand up again. Then you have these layers, as endless as it may seem, they do get thinner and thinner, until eventually you get to the center. Of course the center when you get to it, will have it's flaws like there will still be som candy attached to it and such, but it's the "good" part. So is healing, healing will take time, it takes different amounts of time for everyone. Healing comes off like layers, like an onion. Every layer you take off may burn your eyes and stink a little, but in the end, it will all be gone, after all the layers have been taken away. But then the trauma will never just go away, even with the example of the onion, you will still smell onion for awhile, it's become apart of you, it's soaked into your skin. Just like the trauma, it's a part of you, it has made you who you are today, though it was not a good thing, it's taking away those layers at the speed you need to. This was a little long, but I just wanted to give a few examples of what I felt and how I think. Though I am in the same boat and will be for awhile, but anway, I just wanted to share.

Jennifer