I'm really worried that I'm too messed up in the head to function. I don't know how much longer I can take it, it seems to take so much energy just to stay barely functional, I suppose I'm just one of those lazy entitled millennials everyone is talking about. I'm never gonna be able to hold down a job that pays well enough to support myself, I want to contribute, I really do but I can't shut down the cascade of negative thoughts most days. I've tried therapy before, I've been on medication it just doesn't seem to help. I had a complete breakdown about 4 years ago and was hospitalized for four days. I just can't seem to untangle the mess in my head and be either the person I want to be or the person others need me to be. I'm just so tired...