hi guys
I really hate when this kind of thing happens. I've been feeling more anxious and definitely agitated recently but not depressed. i feel more alone in my new college, it's my first semester there this spring so making friends is hard, but like i said I'm not feeling depressed.
yet out of the blue, today has been very difficult. feeling frazzled and especially alone, left out (though I know it is not intentional). i hate admitting this, it's making me cry, but suicidal thoughts and the desire to self harm has popped up. i dislike this for so many reasons, but really because I can't find something that really "caused this", you know? There are things going on in my life that are upsetting, but I don't find a correlation at all. I'm not having the thought process "because XYZ has happened, I'm going to kill myself". why does this happen???? it's been so long. can't regress like this. just need support n maybe some advice guys. thanks