Hopefully, she will just be curious....In the past, I googled her adult daughter and read some articles the daughter wrote. They were very interesting, and happened to be relevant to something my daughter is involved with too. I don't want to give details. I decided to keep this information to myself. More recently, I learned through this, I'll call it a newsletter, that Ts daughter was relocating and where she was working. Again, similar to my daughter's interests.

Whenever I felt like I crossed boundaries, like driving past her house, I ended up telling her. I felt too guilty otherwise. This time I thought I could keep it to myself. T says it's okay to Google her but I think she may have a different feeling about her daughter.

During my session, I mentioned my daughter and this interest. I wish I could have said what I knew about her daughter but thought I'd better not.

So, of course I couldn't stop feeling guilty! I also wanted to be able to compliment her daughter, but of course I couldn't. Sigh...I alluded to this situation in email and wrote " I can't write it because you will be very upset." I didn't mention her d at all.

I know that her d's life has nothing to do with me or my d. I just found the writing (which was for the public though limited audience) fascinating. There were a few things about my T, but not much. I know if I asked T what her daughter's work is, she would have told me but I don't think she would have volunteered information about the newsletters.

I haven't been obsessing about this, barely thought about it until my session. Now I want to confess to her and talk about why I persist in looking up her family. I have a secure attachment to my T now, and feel differently. I was curious is all I can think of! Plus some of that "I wish this were a reciprocal relationship" feeling. T knows me for 6 years and knows I'm not a stalker. Still, I feel like I'm disappointing her, and wonder how she will react. I want to wait until my session and discuss it face to face, and face my punishment, so to speak.