Just the title...
I have no reasons, no hope, everything that ive tried and others have tried to make me feel better fails just so miserably. I have no one, no happiness, no prospects, no money, no reason, no nothing.... just nothing... I need help but nothing ever helps...I hate myself so entirely I dont even want this person I hate so much to get better, to ever feel anything besides pain.... I just cant do it... I dont know what to do... what do i do when nothing helps? And the only person that ever helped cant stand you anymore...

what do you do when you just want to die, because thats all there is to look forward to?

theres is no hope, no better days ahead, things only ever get worse. and when im fool enough to hope or try, life bashes my brains in, making sure that I never am stupid enough to do that again unless I want things to be ruined beyond repair, like things do every single time... im just so done.... what can i do...? theres nothing to do... everyone says just make it through today and tomorrow will be better. thats the biggest lie ever, even when you hope with all your heart and convince yourself things will be better, it just proves you wrong in ever horrible, painful way.

People always tell me you cant do anything until you feel better, but if you never feel better, if you spend every moment of every day trying, and failing to cope, you'll just waste your entire life away... its alljust useless, hopeless.... theres nothing to do... nothing.... i have nothing...

All I have is depression...