So I went back to your older threads and realized I replied to one in the past actually. You seemed bit awkward, but intelligent back then.

I am sure you had your reasons for creating this vulnerable, hard to comprehend Anna, in her own world with nice niceties and English language deconstructed. Sure people liked you, but not for your whole personality. It might have been sympathy, our caring instincts... I don't know. I had hard time understanding your created alterego. And didn't have common interests really.

I think you probably deterred many people from being able to give you advice and support to be the best you can be. Instead they comforted you in your state of being, thinking this is all you are and can be. You wasted time, didn't you?

Yeah, people are hurt, but you hurt yourself the most. You allowed yourself regress in your lies. You created relationships based on lies. Even if people forgive you, maybe they will not click with the real you. And people who might have liked real you were "turned off" by your pretended personality... It's like pretending you are tiny blonde on a dating site, if you are in fact exotic Amazon. Everybody will find people who like them... but people who liked the created Anna are not the same as those who would like the real Anna. Just too different personalities.