I have just downloaded a few photos onto my tablet to show you next session. Why do I want to do that? I wonder whether your admission of paternal feelings towards me has made me feel more like I want you to be a witness to my life, or something? There's one photo of me, when I was about 14, the worst period of my life (I told you about the photo before) and I really want to show you that. It's so defensive, so alone, it might help you to see why I find it so hard to emote even now. But it's no coincidence I want to show you this stuff now, when I can feel your care.