i feel ya...
its so discouraging having everyone around you look at you like you need to just snap out of it...
it should be obvious that if any of us could just snap out of it we would - we dont like living like this and definitely aren't choosing to go through these things...
but "neurotypical" people cant fathom these things...
im tired too but we have to keep moving forward... atleast keep fighting to keep our head above water.. i know nothing i can really say will make it any easier for you...
just know that there are people in the world that get it and know what its like to go through those things and have to put up with everyone elses bull**** too...
sober for 21 days is great, its not easy and im proud that you are trying to handle things without it.. you're stronger than you think you are

im hear to listen to any kind of whining you want or need to do.. its not whining to me, just sometimes we need someone to talk to