I'm so sorry you're going through a rough time. Your message on my post really did bring a lot of awareness to me, and I'm just sorry that you had to deal with this. You're not alone, I promise you. You're exactly right, though. You need to keep searching for hope, you have to keep fighting. I promise you, it'll all be worth it! There are many people on here who are, unfortunately, in the same situation as you. I'm sure they would love to support you, just as much as you would want to support them. I promise, things will get better. I'll try to help in any way that I can, if you'll let me. Maybe we could even be friends! I wouldn't mind. I just want you to be okay. Because you're really nice, and you don't deserve this madness going on.