First of all I don't think that is any way to talk to people trying to give support and advice
If you don't like antipsychotics fine, but advising someone to stop taking theirs and calling someone who Has benefited from antiosychotics "full of ****" is unnecessary and unhelpful

Also there has been proof that psychosis causes brain damage when untreated

Anyway, to the op,
I can understand that feeling of being followed and watched
I still don't know if I should believe me Dx because it honestly feels like it's just some dumb label to make people not believe you