Would someone find out why the sandman never stops at my house anymore ... did I do something to tick him off ...

been crapy for weeks but three days ago ... just could not turn the thoughts off , my xanex and benadryl ... just did not work ... my trazadone seems to be exciting me instead of helping me sleep ... I'm up to 150 now and it seems worst than ever ... been the same last two nights except worst ... I think the trazadone is helping to lessen the depression ... caught myself sharing way to much today and giggling ... so I really don't want to stop it but there just is no sleeping ... afraid may have to go back on geodon (which I hate) just to get some sleep ... pills to do one thing and another to counter the effects so can function ... what a screwed up life I have ... really would just love to kick them all and just see if it was better ...

sleepless in pc land .... Tigger ....

had to have something to do ... staring at the ceiling was killing me ... hope you have a better night than I am ....

ps: you know it's bad when even Soon-kyu did not help ...