Things actually very good now. As good as I can remember really. It feels a bit surreal after a bit of a major wobble but somehow or other I have lucked out - as they say. I guess I am pretty love-driven after all after not being for such a long time.

I'm trying hard to keep things relatively smooth rather than jumping in emotions blazing but we are very close very quickly and I hope it lasts for a long time. We adore each other at the moment.

Still have the odd sleepless night and little bit of anxiety and still feel a bit outside of things and uncomfortable around people sometimes but it's nothing compared to before and it's about different things rather than mind-numbing, lie in bed and hope you don't wake up depression and I'm thankful for that.