I had my bloodwork done last week, so I the tests should be in by the time I have my session with my Psychiatrist on Friday morning.

I went to go see my family doctor, and my mom specified that I needed a physical done, and I didn't get it, I was maybe in there for 10mins and all he did was check my ears, didn't check my blood pressure, my heart rate nothing. He was the doctor that delivered me and he's known me for my 24 yrs and this is the first time he ever messed up my appt, I was so upset and so pissed.

He reccomended that I could go for a PET scan, because I know that MS runs in my family ,and that the numbling/tingling is a symptom of that and started to worry about it. My uncle suffers from MS. But my Psychiatrist is going to look into that, but if that test cannot determine that then i'm not going to bother with it.

I know however that I do not have that disease, but when my mind goes running away with irrational thinking when my anxiety is high I always worry about stuff like that, diseases, cancer, everything.

I'm still getting food anxiety, if something tastes weird, I get anxious , think it's posion and what not. Hasn't stopped me from eating though.Even though i'm still iffy about chicken.

I'm doing a bit better, not not great. I'm still on my Remeron at 45mg, I never did go up to 60mg, the max dose, don't think i'm going too. I don't know when she is going to switch me to Effexor, if that's what she is going to do.

I will know more about this on Friday.

Still re-reading Don't panic, which has helped some.

It sucks that I can relate still to The body remembers book... Boourns. :-(

Ah well...