(((((((Lexicon))))))) I kno exactly how u feel. Sometimes I don't even remember pulling out the knife, it's just automatic. DOesn't it feel like the deeper the cut, the more blood, the more u've accomplished? It's wierd...I've heard alot of people giving me advice about stuff to do to distract myself when I wanna cut, one was to like take red nail polish or something and paint ur arm. I thought that was very creative and even tho I've never tried it so I dont kno if it works, maybe it'll help. Stay strong