yep - only my therapist has a desk full of stones and toys to play with. I swear I rub my thumb right through those stones. It has become easier. I think she recognizes how I am triggered and tries to work around it.

Perna said some valuable things about feelings being new due to (perhaps finally) talking about such things. Yes, it will get easier. But I just want to say that there is nothing wrong with getting emotional. No one is going to judge you. There is no award for not getting emotional.