i hate it when this happens...
you are so strong... believe in yourself...
try to be patient with yourself... these things sometimes can't be rushed...
i know you are pressed for time and want out NOW... for your mother more than yourself but aslo yourself...

my escapism developed into more severe things i think... like dissociation...
dont beat yourself up for this... you are trying to cope with pretty extreme stress...

also i did spend alot of my time from 11yearsold-present day with video games trying to escape...
but my depression has taken all of my escapes away and im left with other things...
they have taken the internet away from me too... that was before and they saw the same thing - it deteriorated everything aout me becuase i didnt have any outlets...

can you talk to a therapist about these things?
you can talk here as much as you want and get support but talking with a professional therapist is really helpful... being able to sit down and actually have a real person in front of you understanding you and trying to help you 1 on 1...
get a trauma therapist... some therapist dont really do trauma and can seem to make it worse...

im sorry you are having to go through all of that...