yeah.. i read that teens grow out of it most of the time... but i guess ocasionally adults do it too - maybe they just dont know about the adults because we hide it 1000000000 times better than the younger ones..?
or maybe they just dont care about adults self harm :/ i dunno - its just a release..

i dont have anyone i can tell or talk to about it right now...
i live with my parents but it would scare the hell out of them if they knew about it... they would think im trying to kill myself or that im dangerous and they might worry that im going to snap and kill everyone...

im not dangerous to anyone but myself though i guess... and even then i really dont want to die... it just sucks going through these things :/
getting too old for all this ..

i talked to my old therapist about it once but that was years ago and it did seem to help just telling someone how much pain im in...
of course they " talked " me into going into the psychiatric hospital because of it..
and i didnt do it for like a year after that but i guess after everything happening at the mental health clinic i was going to and all the stuff in the past and worrying about the bloody future... its just a lot to try to handle sometimes..

hoping to get back with a good therapist soon

im trying to hang in there, my arm is still sore from the other day so im hoping it will keep me from doing ...

thanks much love