Today I woke put at 6 and so far it hasn't been hard, but it's annoying. Like I'm expecting it to hurt and it doesn't and I don't know what to do with it.

So far I had found several things about me, belief that I haven't realized I have about life, karma and my youth that explain why I don't love myself or it's so hard for me to accept feeling bad. Exhausted and I want a hug. Tomorrow I see my therapist and it's hard to remember that he is not god and would not made my problems go away but I know he would help. Hard not to think in the past or the future and think in the know.