pearlys ...from your post....

Pdoc keeps telling me i should stop analyzing me myself an i
She thinks its a personality disorder... And the symptoms are depression related...

not sure if you know this but psych central has many forums for all kinds of mental disorders. here is where you will find the personality disorders

Personality Place - Forums at Psych Central

my point is maybe you can find more help there too. there are many members that have more than one problem so they read, post and find help in many forums here.

example when I am having bipolar disorder problems I read the bipolar boards, when I have dissociative problems I come to the dissociation forum, when I am having parenting stress I look to the parenting forum, when I am having PTSD related problems I head for the PTSD forum...

just a suggestion to maybe give you more options and opportunities for help and info with your problems.