I'm thinking about several troubling things at once right now, so my mind's a bit foggy. Sometimes in regard to this kind of matter I wonder if my saving grace would be a goal. I talked about ambition a little, and I wonder if that's what I need: something in my life to devote myself to so neither meaninglessness nor radical change nor loss of self will matter, it will all be worth it.
I kind of don't count on that happening though.
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Originally Posted by alchemy63
Suppose you wanted to bake a cake, but, you only had two ingredients. Would you make one of pure salt, or one of pure sugar? Would it be possible to expand your options?
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I could, but to what?
Also, in relation to everything, where does the Self come into play? How valuable, really, is authenticity - because I know I cling to mine, even if it's personally detrimental, even if it makes me less respectable to those whose opinions I value. Feels like it's all I have to live on, however confused it might be, and any "loss" or substantial change could completely obliterate me. Stupid, but it's what I find I'm thinking about, and it's tangentially related.