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Originally Posted by NoIdeaWhatToDo
I tend to destroy things that are mine and/or from my past. Pictures, journals, souvenirs, yearbooks. I tend to get worked up until I'm furious, then I get furious with myself, and I take the rage out by destroying myself figuratively. It's scary, sometimes - it feels like I'm erasing myself and any evidence of my time on earth. It feels like the world is a computer and I'm trying to delete my whole life's file, every trace of me, but more rageful.
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I did something similar in essence, maybe: I didn't dare write because I thought it wasteful and didn't want any trace being made.
For me such things only happen when depressed. It's actually in essence just depressive behaviour, I guess: not worthy of traces, not wanna be seen or heard. Wasting valuable time and space. Memories of you that shouldn't be.
Sometimes includes food.