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Originally Posted by Creedart
I couldn't find better topic for this case as this which I wrote.
Well, first of all you need to know, that probably I will write this text with really huge and awful mistakes. Why? Because I don't speak well english language. It's my second language. I'm not english man or else. I'm writting here this post because in my country help for this kind of problems don't exist. I am a problem. For me, my family and maybe for my compatriots. Not at all.
Every day when I realise that there is "this" secret which is deep in my heart, in my soul, I feel really bad. I am gay and... I think it's normal. I have a boyfriend and with bad and good occurence we are together 10 mounths. I'm 24 years old, studying two courses, learning (as you can see) language english, fight with my disadvantages to feel better and it helps me to run away from the truth.
My friends know, that I'm gay (not everyone) and please belive me - if there wouldn't be so huge obstacle I could tell my mother and father the truth. But I can't. Why?
I'm not alone in my family with homosexsuality. I have older sister which is also homosexual. She lives with her girlfriend, she told my mother everything about her when she was 24 and now she lives without any frightfull. And i'm so scared WHAT WILL HAPPEND WHEN MY PARENTS REALISE or just i will tell them that i'm gay. I feel guilty with that, i don't know why but it will kill them. I asked my friends what should i do - and they just telling me "yes, when your mother will know the truth, she will be so breakdown". Oh thanks for help! My boyfriend - well... i think he doesn't tell nothing more than "soon, they will know".
Oh Christe, I know that they will know that, but now i'm not ready to say that. If this case appear, i will be on the edge. So what should i do now? Or in the future? run away? disappear? or tell it now and have hope, that everything will be alright?
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I am a lesbian. I know that different cultures can react to homosexuality in widely different ways. In some intolerant countries, it can be dangerous for even close friends and family to know. In others, it is perfectly acceptable and LGBT can marry, have families, and live completely normal "traditional" lives if they choose.
I live in between those. I am in USA but in a LGBT pretty intolerant community. I am out to close friends and family but never at work. I doubt i will ever be 100% out. Coming out, especially if you are suffering from depression and anxiety,can be very difficult.
I would suggest figuring out what you realistically might gain from telling your parents and what you might stand to lose. Honesty about you, your depression, your boyfriend, and your life situation would be very important. Give it some time. Talk it over with those close to you, especially your sister if you can. Then make your decision. Since they have already had a bad reaction to your sister, you probably want to take your time and think about this.