Thanks for sharing that with us, that is one heck of an awe-inspiring writing, I really really liked it. (Pardon my poor vocabulary) As a person who never experienced the worst trifecta that you described in your writing, plus much more that took away your time, I think that your words, feelings, good character are coming through, and this goes without saying you're a one special brave and courageous person that I've ever met, that anyone would see.
I'm not so sure about naïvety and impossibilities, maybe we can all settle for the better.
Life is precious, our time is precious, your letter has shown me that we oughta live the way like there's no other way to live, that's what I'm thinking after reading it.
I just hope that you feel less lonely than the time your unexpected fight started, may the strength be with you and your fellow fighters.
(((12PM)))