Hi nearlyallie

Welcome to PC!!
I know that pretending that you're okay when you're not can be SO hard, take SO MUCH strength.........but you know what (??) admitting that you're not okay can take SO MUCH strength too. So thankyou so much for sharing with us, we're really privileged that you've managed to do that here
And now........not knowing the "people" you mean, so bear with me.........maybe you aren't giving them the chance to show how much they actually care about you..........because your feelings should matter to those who care about you, they should want to be there for you.
I know not all people are going to be like that but why jeopordise getting the actual caring and support of people who matter for the possible reactions of others who shouldn't be that important in your life?? You're "hurting", and that matters, you deserve caring and support
And.........you'll definitely find people on here to be caring and supportive, so I'm hoping you'll stick around..........where we can maybe offer you the place you need to be "not okay", maybe allow the real you to feel understood and cared about, maybe support you with/through some of the things going on for you, maybe help you reach out to some of those people in your life who can be there for/show how much they care about the real you.



Alison