<font color="blue"> </font> I am 29 & 4 months pregnated ,not married . I have a girl age 7 from my first marriage, but I left him , I wasn't happy . Well long story short I have always had problems with depression & I'm not feeling so good right now . I'm worry that I'm not a good mom & here I am going to do it again . I am always down on myself & I know kids sence this & it makes them think bad about them selfs. It doesn't help that the father to be doesn't seem to understand me & we seem to fight all the time . I feel alone & I'm scared, I love him very much & I would like to get married ,but I don't see him asking any time soon. I cry at night when he is in bed I don't want him to know that I do this , I don't want him to know that I feel this sad , it's like saying hey look at me I'm weak. I just want to feel loved thats all I want , but I don't love myself so how can anyone else.