I actually enjoy it as painful as it has been at times.

I think therapy is soft science, not a magic formula to heal people. Time heals as well, and I think studies show so can close friendships/relationships. I think some people are disappointed therapy is so nebulous, but sadly it has to be since we haven't discovered anything better yet, and so are even the drugs used to treat mental illness.

Still, if I am just throwing darts trying to regain my happiness, I'd rather throw them with someone than alone. I like having an older therapist who can tell me how things I am going through now were for him. I think it is good on my psyche to have someone who is kind and compassionate assume a "stable" roll in my life. I'll quote stable since obviously there's some big limitations there.