Well, I am awake and so sad. I took over a large load today of her things. They took my baby because it wasn't a "good fit" after 11 months they decide this. Seems to me that they had her placed here to make it look good for the TPR to get done and then switch her to somewhere else. Poor little %#@&#! moved around so much. She doesn't deserve it. I have talked with her would have been new therapist and I am seeing doc tomorrow. My T tomorrow. My baby! She was starting to really love me. I love her so much. I snuck out at midnight with her blankies just out of the wash and a care bear that was on hubbie's bureau. In my nightie and a jacket,. I forgot that she would not know how to call us because I changed my phone number when dcf kept bugging me. She will be happy there for a little while and then the flames will start. I have to go take a lot of drugs right now. Just need the sleep. awake and aware is too much.