Yesterday was rough. The morning was nice, bf had the day off so we got up together and went to breakfast before I had a dr appointment with my rheumatologist. The appointment went well, and I was sent to the lab for some blood tests. They actually went well, maybe it was the klonopin before I went. Well, the clinic called me when I was halfway home, that the dr didn't call down all the tests he wanted me to do, and could I come back for more?

I was frustrated. I have a phobia of needles, and it's taken a long time to get ok even with the weekly injections I have to give myself. I've had blood tests at the clinic for 6 months now, and I can't look, can't think about the experience of the tech drawing it. Otherwise I panic.

Well, we were going to dinner at my brother's anyway, so we stopped at the clinic on the way. The tech I got was snippy, didn't seem to have much compassion. I told her that the tech in the morning had trouble finding a vein in my right arm, so she decided to go in my left. I asked if she would consider my hands, the veins in the back are so big and close to the surface, and for some reason it doesn't freak me out as much. I can have up to 3 vials taken from there. But she snapped that they needed "a bunch", so I dropped it. Thankfully. So she pokes around my left arm for a long time. Then she stops and looks at me, and said "I don't like it". Well, good for you. There must be something else she could do, right? No, she just stabbed the needle in and dug around. I cried. I couldn't help it, it hurt so much and I started panicking. She kept trying to be soothing, but came across as insulting. I felt at one point like the blood tests were my choice, like it's my fault I have arthritis. I barely said anything the rest of the time I was there, and hauled *** out to the parking lot after. I cried there too, with my bf holding me.

I was able to calm down some later, at my brother's house. We all got together to eat and see pics from him and his fiancée's trip to Disney a couple weeks ago. I just was left pretty shaken all night after the experience at the clinic.

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