I cut really deep again. Lots of stitches again, painful now. Psychologist made me go to the ER otherwise I would have just let it be. She says she's scared for me because my cuts are too deep and dangerous. I don't want her to be scared for me, I want to be reassured I'm going to be okay. She says she won't reassure me because if this continues I'm going to do permanent damage or hit an artery soon, and she's being honest by telling me she's afraid. I know this is supposed to be a reality check and my therapist isn't supposed to lie, but I'm scared too now. Pdoc also told me last week I'm in trouble from the cutting and I need to take some responsibility for my safety because I'm in "medical danger," and they're way too severe. Then I cut again...