Well I have to ask for apologies because I just did what I should have done before posting: I took the time to read all in detail (I'm pretty busy during the week).

I'll make this quick, hoping that you still read the responses, Anna:

Just move on. Start again and this time be honest with yourself. I agree that you need to get help, don't be scared. Everyone makes mistakes and you're a fool not if you make them, but if you don't learn from them.

And thanks for the life lesson: there's always much more than meets the eye!

I hope we can finally have a normal and adult conversation when you come back. I'm looking forward to that because you're very interesting, but not as the fake Anna, as the real one.

Take care.