I never call my T. And I have never really texted/Emailed "in distress" or suicidal or anything like that...so I think she knows if I ever did contact her in crisis, she would know it's a really big deal. However my T is very inconsistent in boundaries. It drives me nuts to try to understand where we are at. A good example, she sent me an Email a week ago letting me know that she's trying to not be so connected to her devices, so she said she didn't want me to text her anymore unless it was an emergency. We both know, I really don't HAVE emergencies. I understand, but of course took it as a bit of rejection, because things with her have changed so much. But, she sent me a text on Wednesday, just wanting to know how I'm doing, as I have a great deal of stuff going on in my life. I thought about it, and instead of texting her back, I Emailed her to answer that question. It was confusing to me, she asked for no texts, yet she texted me when it was suitable for her. Don't get me wrong, I'm very appreciative that she checked in! But I Emailed her a reply instead of texting her back.

My T is on vacation now. We had a session on Thursday, and she said to keep in touch while she's gone, "text me anytime." WTF? She just told me on Saturday to not text her anymore, then sends me one on Wednesday, and on Thursday tells me to text her anytime? I just don't get it....I find it really confusing. Just like last summer. She used to tell me she loved me, then I get an Email from her saying that's reserved for people in her private life, and not genuine, so won't be saying it anymore. That really hurt me too. Then, two weeks after she told me that, she gave me a hug after a session and told me she loved me. UGH. I just try to keep up with her, but have learned to put up some boundaries for myself to keep myself from getting hurt.