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Originally Posted by wiretwister
yes and no ... I just as you say have run it thru my mind over and over for years ... when I got dxed bp1 , I knew my dream of passing my insurance to my family was over ... any thing I do even an accident is going to be called a su ... no pay off ... but now ... I have found a way to "prove" it
... it scares me a little ... I am not sure I could trust myself if it gets very bad again ... so I want to give the plan to my T ... if she knows .. and tells ... no payoff ... no insurance to pass on ...
no reason to act...
but will she see this as a sign that needs imediate attention ... such as ip ... I'm very stable and clear headed right now ... no su at all ... I really want this feeling to go away ... but I am afraid of ip again ... but maybe I do need it ... I'm not sure I can change by myself ... I need to trust someone ... I really feel she maybe the one ...
I really want to live ... but I am afraid of those really dark days like I have had before ... maybe they will never come back ... but do I take that chance ...
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Let's break it down.
*You figured out a way around a previous barrier. This removed your safety latch.
*Letting your T know puts a safety latch back in place.
*Counting on dark days never returning as your alternate safety latch is not realistic. You know this.
*You also realize that you would need someone to trust at such a time.
*You have a knowlegeable person you trust. With whom...
*There is an agreement already in place regarding your safety.
*You really want to live.
It's a no-brainer.
Like gina_re said. You've answered your own question.
Sometimes we just get too much swirling around obscuring it.
Excellent decision Tigger, printing it out and letting her know. It's the right thing to do.
