When depressed I almost always experience anhedonia. I never have crying episodes because I simply don't care about anyone or anything to feel sad. I usually sleep 11 hours or more because there is nothing worth getting out of bed for. I wish I would die - but I am not suicidal just indifferent to life. I feel hopeless much of the time. I always worry if an episode will not respond to treatment and that I won't get better.

I am lucky though. I have a great pdoc and we usually can tweak the meds to alleviate the depression.