All I keep hearing is people who just keep talking about a 40+ chat area. While i have the most deep respect for them i just need to say something then i will shut up. I am turning 20 coming up sept. 17...while this is a big step for me....others see it as eh...not a big deal....i have been through alot in my life....in fact people make the joke that ive already had menapause at age 12....and now im looking to retire Anyway. I have been here awhile and know most of you. I been through all talks of all ages....heck i never grew up with children my own age...but it doesnt matter to any of you what i have experienced in my life...it doesnt matter that i have raised three children...and im not over 30....it doesnt matter that i have been lawyer, a social worker, a mother, a lover, a teacher, a caregiver....what seems to matter to everyone is the number....i love all of you....and i can keep up my end of the conversation as good as anyone....granted...i might act like a child at times...dont we all....i may act silly or goofy....but of 18 years of serious trying to surivive...dont you think ive earned that right to make an occasional inappropriate joke? What you guys dont realize is that 40 is a number....not a character description...my father is 60 and once you meet him ...you wouldnt allow in the age 5 and older group!!! But that doesnt matter to anyone...my advice...and my love and my support doesnt matter to anyone all because im turning 20...and think about it....how many people WOULD use it ...it seems like alot when you all come together to ask for it but what if i was in a really intriguing adult conversation with some over 40 and someone else came in over 40...would you make that person follow you just to keep the conversation for over 40 because its appropriate there? And leave me out or would you continue the conversation and join in...and even if i may act "appropriate" enough for you to accept me i still couldnt join in your conversation...therefore causing me more isolation than any of you intended...however that would always be the story of my life now wouldnt it....im always isolated but its nice to talk to others .....but just remember...what i say may mean nothing to any of you....but it means something to me....and it means something to all the people not 40 years old...think of all your friends who are 38, or even 39, or 30 who have had quite alot of experiences but they cannot have an adult conversation because they dont meet the age requirements....it doesnt matter what i have to say....as long as im 40....i need a fast forward button. Im sorry for the rant...but it needs to be said...i speak for no one but myself and remember i love you all...and wish to continue to support all of you as you have done so wonderfully to me...this is only my feeling.....take it as you may....hopefully no hard feelings.
love,
inny