Hello there, it's a pleasure to meet you!

I know I can't understand how you feel completely, it's never that easy. But I do somewhat relate. I made a lot of friends, yet when I really look at my interactions with them or I look at their interactions with others; it makes me wonder. Sometimes I really lack the enthusiasm to talk and I end up leaving for awhile, only to come back and see that they've forgotten about me. I try my hardest to be social and make friends, even though they often fall out of my life. I seek comfort in just trying to support others, instead.

Perhaps, it could be somewhat comforting knowing that you're not alone in that kind of situation? I have yet to make any actual friends here, though I have definitely tried. It's just difficult on this site, and on the internet in general, to find a friend that's around your age and on the same page as you. So when you befriend people often out of that realm, miscommunication might happen, or some kind of feeling of inferiority. I have social anxiety, I'm an introvert, and I never really socialize with people face-to-face. So the internet's all I've really got. So I guess there's always a sort of disconnection there, even though I really wish there wasn't.

Basically, I can relate. I'm really sorry that you're going through this right now, and I know it must be really difficult for you. I really hope you can make it out of it, and I wish you the best of luck! If you ever need help or want to talk about it, feel free to send me a private message. I'll be cheering for you!

Have a wonderful day.