Sorry nope my trust here was broken and i won't make that mistake again. I have a T appot on Monday and my first pdoc appt also on mon. I don't want to go to work but I have to for professional and for personal reasons. If I do anything this weekend it will hurt a coworker very badly so I'm tryingt o hang on throught eh weekend and then maybe the visit to my T will help. I dont' feel like I have any personal victories to hang on to everything has been empty. I thought I had been making progress but it led to a worse situation worse life situation worse job situationa and worse emotional situation and I don't consider it a setback because I don't have any other place to go other than to take the same path that always leads to personal destruction for me.