I've been self harming for about 4 years now, I just feel so numb to the point pain is the only physical feeling I can be satisfied with. But lately it hasn't been working either.. I just feel so empty and I guess just hopeless with life in general. I'm tired of living in the life I was put in but all I can do is wait to be free and me succeeding won't even be definite so it all just feels pointless. I feel like giving up entirely but I'm not sure, I also want to run away but I have no where to go. I've just stopped caring about what happens at this point.