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I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 15-16 (about 11-12 years ago now), but I never received any treatment for it since the doctor was only visiting.
I had a lot of trouble with staying in school ever since I was 10-11 years old and I dropped out entirely when I was 15. I could never get homework or assignments done and I failed every single class except for art and agriculture, all because I couldn’t do textbook work. On top of that I’ve always been ‘on edge’ and prone to anger outbursts and I talk and fidget all the time.
So skip forward about a decade and I’m still having all the same issues, except now I’m sporting a diagnosis of BPD because I’m so frustrated to the point of tears a lot.
I accepted my BPD diagnosis to begin with but I’ve gone back to school now and I’m finding my old ‘habits’ are making things hard again. I’m being told off in class for being too loud/talkative, I can’t sit still during the drier lessons, etc. I’ve only been in school for a month and I’m already failing the theory unit because I can’t focus on the work.
I’m starting to think I’m NOT BPD but rather that my old pdoc was right. How do I bring all this up with my current doctor? I want to pass this course I’m doing, but at this stage I just want to drop out because it’s overwhelming already. She didn’t even want to put me on antidepressants or send me for therapy, how can I bring this up without her going “lol it’s your BPD though” and thinking I’m making stuff up?
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