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Old Mar 20, 2016, 12:05 PM
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Originally Posted by Irish Graham View Post
I do most of my activities outside the house alone. I've become fiercely independent (not financially, of course) over the years, as a result. There is a grace and confidence in knowing you can occupy your time alone and not be socially dependent on others.

However, as someone who has never had many friends nor a girlfriend, I am often depressed as I witness so many others with friends and significant others. I desperately want that in life but it is so difficult to attain. What many take for granted I struggle to achieve. Regardless, I just try to focus on my own enjoyment performing activities by myself. It may be depressing at times but my social independence has become a strength that I'm aware many do not possess. I honestly don't know if that is a good or bad attribute but it is my life. As much as I desire companionship in different forms, I can't just never go out. So I guess you could say there is a little pragmatism involved.

*Oh, this is my first post, by the way.

My life, my curse: Bipolar Disorder, Type II
Strong friendships can always still come. The independence you describe is really important. It is (sometimes) a sign of weakness having to rely on having friends around to reaffirm your identity. It is really sad actually.

Real friendships are different. You'll see (I guess you are relatively young, but friendships can be started at all ages).
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