Wow that's intense. I think I would have fallen to pieces at that reunion. It's so hard looking backward. I think you're right about facing forward though. I'm having a difficult time looking forward into the future because there are so many uncertainties for me right now (lost my job, finally fully realized the end of a long-term relationship, etc.). I'm definitely sadder than usual. So maybe my worries about the future are manifesting themselves into more nostalgia than usual. I look back at times when I was more into the moment. I hope I can feel that way again. I cried and cried when I left my parents this weekend to come back to where I live now. And it's not like I even want to move back to my hometown -- I'd be so haunted and sad there. It's just that the present seems so hopeless sometimes.

Thanks for sharing some of your history.

Sidony