My GP suggested I see a neurologist, and just the thought of them finding something they may want to remove has made me decide NOT to.


So no, not even for BP, no scratching inside my skull.


Besides possible brain damage, idk who I would be if my existence wasn't so intense... Idk how i would cope with mediocrity, and that's what it would feel like, because that's exactly what it felt like when i had too much meds in my system. Mediocre.


I've been this way since a very young age, and yes while its viewed as an illness, it has helped to shape who I have become, and I can't say that's all bad.


So no, no scratching in my brain for tumors or BP.

Just no on more than one level.