Good for you. And you're not heartless. You're very strong for leaving him when you thought you couldn't live without him.
Thank you for sharing this.

I'm not in a relationship with either of them, but I'm very attached to my T (woman) and I have very strong romantic feelings for my pdoc. I'll stop seeing them both at the start of April. T is going on leave and with pdoc it ends because I have the right meds, so I don't have to keep seeing him. The thought of not seeing them anymore, pdoc for good and T maybe temporarily, it scares me and it hurts so much.