Hello belle15: I see this is your first post here on PsychCentral... so... welcome! I'm so sorry you have had this terrible experience. I'm afraid I don't have any suggestions for you.

I do have some very small idea of what you're experiencing. I have had tinnitus (ringing in the ears) for quite a few years now. A few years ago one of my ears was feeling "stopped up". I went to see a general practice doctor. She put me on some antibiotics thinking I perhaps had an ear infection. When that didn't help she referred me to an ENT. That doctor put an ear tube in my ear to drain it. Well... there was nothing in the ear to drain. But the ear tube caused my tinnitus to explode! It was like I had a freight train running through my head 24/7. I couldn't stand it. At one point I even said goodbye to my wife. I was going to kill myself.

Fortunately, I went to see my psychiatrist. He put me on Klonopin & that reduced the noise in my head back down to a tolerable level. I then saw another ENT who specialized in tinnitus cases. He treated me & removed the ear tube. After that, I was able to get off of the Klonopin. I still have tinnitus. But it's manageable. However, there was a period of time there when I was certain there was no hope. It's not much when compared with what you have endured. But it gives me some small sense of how you're feeling.

I send warm wishes your way with the hope that, in some way, you will find healing.