Hello Dear,

This sounds so utterly overwhemling. I think you are right about this situation being been caused by the side effects of the drugs you were given/took. You said you have been in the hospital a lot these past couple of years. So I am wondering : By now I would think you should have been seen and examined by a neurologist, have you in fact been throughly evaluated by a neurologist? Have you had an MRI or brain scan?

Also, I dont beleive the physicians you ahev seen dont know what is wrong with you. what I think is that they dont want to deal with the fact that the drugs they prescribed caused such terrible side effects in you. It is really terrible to ahve to deal with such symptoms and on top of it be told ' we dont know what it is." In my own eprsonal expereince just knowing there was a name for what was going on with me seemed to make things more manageable. I dont think a lot of docs really get whats its like to be on the other end of the stick. Honesty here is your friend. Have you asked them outright about these drugs and their side effects?

Look these drugs up or have someone else do it for you and I think you will start to get some validation regarding the connection between the drugs you took and your symptoms--which are as much neurologic as psychiatric. THIS IS OF COURSE MY OPINION AND I AM NOT A DOC. I Have however, been through a lot myself and am familiar with the side effects of psychotropic drugs. No one ever tells you about these or id they do they always tell you the benefits of the drugs outweigh the side effects. This is lazy medical practice at its worst. In My Opinion. I am personally very much against the unnecessary prescribing and over presecribing of psychotropic drugs.

I wish I could say something to amke you feel better. I guess I can tell you I was given a drug once that made me curl up totally paranoid in a ball on the floor where I stayed until the drug wore off. The prescriber who was a good doc never expected this to happen to em when I took this drug but it did.

Like I said before, some honest communication and straight talk form our docs woud be truly helpful Drugs are so frequently handed out as short term fixes that end up being long term problems.

Do not give up. Research or ahve someone else research for you on what has happened what drugs you took etc etc. Ill bet money youre not alone in your delemna. Hoepfully there is help for you and you will find it. Also, If you ahvent already been seen, insist on being evaluated by a neurologist.

Take care, kiddo. You are in my thoughts and prayers.