So basically, there's something I need to not take as seriously? Maybe lighten up a bit? Probably in my hobbies, and come to think of it, in peeling back my layers and trying to figure out the truth. Give myself breaks. I admit it's hard but hopefully I can do it. I guess the problem is that I am very, very afraid. Like I'm not doing something right somehow. I don't do things right. I'm kind of stupid and a coward, actually.