i have never let myself come close to making a plan... i have thought about many different things though, ways.. but i refuse to make any plans... im not going to let the depression win you know?
i know you are hurting... but we can get through this... i know it seems impossible, i know it seems like the only answer... but its not you know? it just seems like that to us because we cant see through this thick fog that is depression...

i know how you feel about causing financial strain on your parents... i can't work right now and im completely dependent on my dad and im 26 years old but im really sick and am trying to fight with all my might... i know you are stronger than you believe and you are much much more important than you feel, its just hard to see right now you know?

i feel terrible about my affliction, because i cause so much strain on everyone... although i try to be invisible and not hurt anyone or cause any problems and stay to myself and keep all my emotions and stuff inside bottled up... to not hurt anyone or worry anyone or whatever you know..

but i try to reach out here because people here truly understand...
i understand and i have feel like you do many times... but this is something we can control, this is something that we can say NO YOU CANT TAKE THIS FROM ME DEPRESSION!!!
because depression can take everything from us... but only we can take our life away...
you know?

i know you are hurting... im so so sorry....
please talk here, i will listen and i will understand, i will try to help even though im not really good person to give advice because i too suffer... but i want you to survive and i want you to beat this and have a good life, you deserve all of that - happiness, you really do

please be strong for me..?
for all of us; we care about you