I've never followed the majority, and I'm thinking that might be part of the problem. I'm too different to easily find where I fit in.

And yes, Ruari I can relate to what you're saying.

I honestly don't take a huge amount of initiative to get people to hang out with me, but then I distrust people's intentions so I don't generally bother. I suppose I feel hard to get now.

The people that I do end up hanging out with are people who want to use me to do their homework or my boyfriend's friends. Maybe people think I'm just a peripheral? But these are the same people I would gravitate towards anyway so I don't know. I guess I just think he'll at least protect me from people taking advantage of me.

It could be a self-esteem issue. Or I've just been hurt too many times to trust again. But it's frustrating that I can't seem to get most people to understand what I'm saying.

Back to your question, Wandering Soul, I'm just looking for people that I can actually talk to and not have them act like I'm speaking another language. I tend to dislike dualistic thinkers (as one way is correct, all others are always incorrect sorts of thinkers).

I've also noticed that depending on my stress level, I may not be able to tolerate being in loud, bright, and crowded places for very long and especially not all the time. I generally don't need to get away from people, it's just the loudness/pitch/tonal complexity. It's hard to explain because my reaction isn't always consistent. I don't know if I'm hypersensitive or what, but sounds bother me and certain foods seem to bother me. I may not have as much of a problem anymore, but I don't know how to safely test what food I can handle on a regular basis.