i know it can be hard wanting to get any help... but if you are having these symptoms and they are causing problems for you in life its good to see a professional, you dont have to take medicines right off.. can just talk to them about whats going on and get their opinion and if you feel comfortable with what they say maybe try medicine or wait till later till you feel more comfortable...

i have tried lots of meds and i haven't really had problem with feeling worse... i have had some weird side effects on a couple, like the strattera... but thats for adhd.. and depakote made me really dopey... couldn't think really good on it... but thats a mood stabilizer they probably wouldnt put you on that right off... if ever

for depression they usually go straight to the SSRIs... might would be zoloft or celexa... i did celexa first then zoloft...
they generally usually dont have too many side effects... on rare occasion some get some but i didnt have any side effects when on the ssri's/snri's type medicines..
they just didnt help me very much ... but that doesnt mean they wouldnt help you!

zoloft is supposed to be good for depression and anxiety...

when i first started taking medicine i was a bit scared myself... but i wanted to feel better so i gave it a shot... its not as bad as i thought it would be really
and it has helped a little in the past when i was taking the meds...

generally the medicines wont fix you but they can help you feel better so that you can work on getting better... some people have paradoxical effect and feel so much better on medicine that they think they dont need it anymore even!

im not saying you should take medicine, just saying if the symptoms are causing problems then maybe its an idea you could think about...

personally i cant do it without medicine... my symptoms are too severe...

you can talk here, i dont want to annoy you or anything so dont get mad at me please
just want to help